Monday, July 4, 2011

5w1d: Dreading Tomorrow's U/S

My ultrasound is tomorrow and 4pm and I'm worried sick. Our last baby was measuring behind, but I was so thrilled it was intrauterine that I didn't even process that. But it was, in retrospect, yet another sign that the pregnancy was doomed, doomed, doomed.

I don't even want to go. I want to be excited about seeing my baby(ies?) and how much they've changed from their little 3-day embryo picture, but instead I just keep thinking "I don't want to know if it's bad, I don't want to know if it's bad"

I don't want to spend the rest of my pregnancy (however long it may be) thinking like this. I hope that, one way or the other, tomorrow afternoon changes that.

7 comments:

Baby Hopes said...

Thinking of you and very much looking forward to your update tomorrow. Hoping your baby(ies) show up measuring ahead!!!

Sarah said...

Praying tomorrow is full of only happy things!! :) Hugs and over-the- top positive vibes being sent your way...

B- said...

Praying for good news on your ultrasound tomorrow! Thinking of you!

Anonymous said...

Thinking of you. Good luck today!

Krista said...

Hoping for VERY good news at your ultrasound today!!! Let us know how it goes!

Mrs BabyDream said...

Best of luck!!

JustHeather said...

My fingers are crossed and I'm sending positive thoughts your way! I hope you get great news today at your appointment.