Because I am.
But it's Father's Day and we had a long talk last night about what to do next and donor sperm and all (again...) and I held on to my resolve until half an hour ago.
And then I peed on a Magic 8 Ball.
(By which I mean an internet cheapie.)
Very very very faint line. Worst possible outcome, because it's so faint it could be trigger, or the start of something, and I'll never know! (Until, like tomorrow. Or even the next day!)
7DPO is totally early. Oh my lord, do I know this.
But inside this rational scientist who knows a shit-ton about early embryonic development lurks a doe-eyed, hopelessly optimistic simpering fool. She fills my head with thoughts like:
But what if it's twins? Triplets! What if they hatched on Day 5? My embryos have done that before. Maybe even 4.5, it's not like they check them on Day 4 in the lab anyway. And they were in the uterus already, no tubes to deal with, just attach and squirm on in. Also, a friend gave me a really good tarot card reading yesterday (hahahaha, I know, right? I'm grasping at all my straws here, but it had the Empress *and* the Queen of Cups!), and besides, fourth time's the charm.
I'm hoping it's a baby-line.
My husband is amazed I waited this long to test (see, he knows me!) and is taking his Father's Day look-at-this-really-hard-see-it's-right-there gift with hope, but for some reason, hasn't called his parents and told them they'll be grandparents just yet.
8 comments:
Praying for you that it is a TRUE line!!! EEEEE! Can't wait to hear more!
oh my! What a day! I've got my fingers crossed that your baby line grows darker by the day.
Oh goodness....baby gods please let it be a baby line!! Is it weird Im picturing 3 lil embies nestled in your ute, sitting around a campfire makin smores?? :) Yeahhhh, I cant get off this "smores" thing. It's too fun :)
The only bfps I've heard of that early were multiples... So I'd guess more than one implanted blastoyst.
But please don't freak out if the line is gone or lighter tomorrow... 8dpo is still way too early to expect a positive test reflecting fetal HCG, especially with one baby. Even 10dpo, the majority of actually pregnant women will still be testing negative.
I so hope it's a baby line!!!
Come on baby line!!! Darken up!!!
I laughed at the image of you peeing on a big black plastic globe.
Keep us posted.
I found this site because we have the same egg retreval date. This is my first IVF. I have read your blog from start to finish. I too plan on POAS but an worried. Thanks for your blog. I don't feel alone.
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