Ok, now, I believe religion should be treated with respect. I myself am not religious, but I was raised religious, many of my best friends are religious, I've lived in different cultures and been exposed to many religions (not just branches of Christianity--actually many different religions) in depth. So I don't mock.
But if you predict a day and a time for the rapture, you're really just setting yourself up.
But anyway. Suffice to say, should said rapture occur, I will very likely not be going. Which I'm kind of glad about.
I have a BF?.
Yesterday, my first day of testing, the conversation with my husband went like this:
HIM: So what does it say?
ME: Well...
HIM: It's too early, right?
ME: More or less.
HIM: Meaning?
ME: Well...when I hold it at a certain angle, I can kind of see a line.
HIM: What does that mean?
ME: ...it's too early.
Today, conversation went like this:
ME: Look! (Shoves still damp stick under his nose) I dipped a second one, just in case.
HIM: I don't see anything.
ME: No, LOOK!
HIM: ...that?
ME: Yes, that!
HIM: What umm, what is it?
ME: It's a very clear shadow. It's clearer than I remember my 9dpo test being last time.
HIM: Nine days past O?
ME: Where I am today. 4 days post-transfer. It's darker, I swear.
HIM: Go look!
Well, of course I kept the tests. I kept the tests, the embryo pictures (we have 2, one pre-freeze and one post-thaw), and our first ultrasound pictures. It's all I have of my almost-baby. I wish I'd had the courage and presence of mind to ask for ultrasound pictures the second time. No, there was no heart. There wasn't even a visible fetus. But the sac was so much bigger. It wasn't viable but it was still alive.
Anyway.
The tests from last time are very dry, and somewhat dusty. I looked at my 4dp5dt one and couldn't see the shadow I know I saw. But of course, the tests from this morning are still somewhat damp--the lines are pink, not a faded purple.
I can't really compare to last time, at least not yet.
There is something. I don't know what to do with it. I don't want to get overly excited. But I don't want to deny myself joy either.
Frankly, I simply cannot believe it. I can't believe one of those embryos is becoming a baby. It boggles my mind.
So I'm glad I'm not getting raptured today, because I really want to see how this all plays out.
10 comments:
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hoping, hoping, hoping those lines get darker!!!
I'm glad that I'm not getting raptured so that I can HEAR how this all turns out.
So very hopeful for you.
Sounds promising!!!
New reader very excited to hear your BF?. At 9dpo, that is really fantastic and a good sign. I didn't get even a vague shadow of a faint maybe-line until 5dp5dt! Keeping fingers crossed that things keep darkening from here on out!
PS - our super-secret infertility and now pregnancy blog is http://mesdamesplusbabies.blogspot.com -- don't put that on my profile because there are many family members who are the reason we even have a "Our kid is cute" blog, and we don't really want all of them to know the details of how many doctors have been shoving a dildocam up my lady parts on a regular basis.
Oh I'm excited!! I hope the lines keep getting darker!!
Yes! I have a great feeling about this :)
Rapture schmapture! But a very faint line is exciting. Hoping this is a good cycle for you too xxh
Wishing for the best! I can't wait to hear about the lines getting darker.
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