Dating

I was going to write a huge ranty post about how my clinic is staffed by idiots--idiots who ran the wrong blood test on me on Friday and didn't catch the error until I called (at 4:30pm, after an 8am blood draw) to ask if I was cleared to start my estrogen or not, idiots who told me "but you came in yesterday" when they couldn't even find my blood results, leading to me saying "No, I was in on Wednesday for my failed beta and FET start, and my p4 was too high, so you made me come in again today to test it", idiots who made me get another draw after work to confirm what they had to already know, which is that a p4 of 2.7 went down (to 0.8) once I stopped the stupid Crinone, and let's not even discuss how these idiots still haven't even gotten me to sign all the consent forms, despite me asking each time I'm there if there are any other forms, and then they call me 15 min-5 hours later to say "oh, oops, we didn't sign X and hubby needs to sign it too", idiots who call my husband "hubby"--but I'm trying to let it all go.

I want this cycle to be nice, hippy, positive-thinking, laughing-at-clowns (I wish I knew how to make links!! I'm sure most of you know about the clown study, but it would be neat to link it), etc. Especially since they wait till 17DPO for beta, and my frozen-on-day-6 embryos only count as Day 5.

But hey, it'll all be worth it, right?

Especially because my cycle will go perfectly, my embryos will turn into well-behaved fetuses, who, like their mother, are always exactly on time. Which is to say, I will be delivering my babies on...

11/11/11

Ok, that's fucking cool. Even if it doesn't happen, that will have been my due date.

I'm currently on oral estrogen. I take 3mg in the morning and 3mg at night. I stay on my baby aspirin this whole cycle.

I've got a blood check (e2) on 2/8. Hopefully, I will sign the last of my consents then.

I start OPKs (I thought I was done with them, but I still have 3 left over, but I can't believe I'm going to go throw more money at them...and that I want a negative!) on 2/9. They don't want me ovulating on my lonesome, because if I do, they'd have to transfer my embryos over President's Day Weekend and they don't want to (I'm assuming).

I have a lining check and e2 and p4 check on 2/18. I'm sure my lining will be nice and plump, since it loves doing that (to make my post-OB-tampon world all the more hellish...). If all is well, I start Crinone that day.

My transfer is 2/23. I start Crinone twice daily. Crinone is expensive as fuck, so I'm not looking forward to this. My clinic hates PIO though, and I hated, hated, hated the Endometrin samples they gave me when I asked to switch off of Crinone during my IVF.

They will thaw both my AAs. If they both survive, we will transfer both. If not, we go down to the BB, and then to the BC. I'm very glad I transferred two last cycle, after all my debating. This way I know I did all I could and can forgive myself for that. I plan on continuing that cycle. I also now have decided (again) that I want twins, because I want both of those lovely 5AAs to feel welcome, wanted, and grow into adorable little toddlers that make me want to tear my hair out.

My beta is 3/7.

And yes, I will test again. I have no trigger, so I plan on testing starting 5 days after my transfer. I know some of you will think I'm crazy, but I feel like my resilience and non-crippling depression from last cycle is in large part due to my gradual let-down (with a small nod going to my beloved Lexapro).

And then I have ultrasounds!!! Because it will be a positive! And then, at 10 weeks post-transfer, I stop the estrogen and Crinone, and my husband stops selling his plasma to afford the damn Crinone.